It's hard to talk about it, even after he's decided to. It's all a big mess in his head. He doesn't know where to start, or with what.

"I used to think I was supposed to feel this way? ...Now I'm not as sure."

They'd mixed it all up. Their words had slipped inside his head, without his even noticing. It was like some kind of emotional vertigo. Whenever he tried to think about it, he only ended up feeling even more sick than before.