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Joker ([personal profile] pipers_son) wrote in [community profile] lostcarnival2017-04-07 05:15 pm

but oh my heart is flawed // closed

Who: Joker and a whole bunch of people (Tamaki, Psionic, Childermass, Ginko, Doll, Hinawa)
What: After a good couple of years faking it, Joker finally breaks. He just wishes that multiple people didn't see it.
When: Early on in the Alola stop
Where: A couple places, including in a tree
Warnings: Alcohol. Joker's messed up past including child murder. A slight mental break.

[Snake is leaving.]

[Joker see it coming a mile away. All the bits of packing in their tiny shared space, and... Who couldn't see such obvious signs? But even with that kind of warning.... He doesn't do anything about it. Tries to ignore it, get back to work and do what he can, because the alternative is facing not only that hurt but so much else.]

[But there's no ignoring it when he steps into the trailer and all traces of Snake are gone.]

[Keep smiling and move forward. For years, that's been the only way he's been able to survive. Keep moving, keep making for over the hill, and until then, so that no one worries or sees too much... Keep smiling.]

[The words repeat through his head as he moves through the darkened carnival, a mantra to keep him going.]

[Just.... keep smiling.]
puddingemote: (but i can write a song)

[personal profile] puddingemote 2017-04-08 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[Tamaki just so happens to be on his way to his own trailer when he hears what sounds suspiciously like someone crying. Unable to just ignore something like that, he starts to weave through the trees, looking for the source of the noise.

But he wasn't expecting to find Joker, though maybe he shouldn't be surprised.]

Um... Manager...? [His tone is soft and worried. Joker is visibly upset, and while Tamaki doesn't really know how to handle this kind of situation, he has to at least say something.] What's wrong?
puddingemote: (i belong)

[personal profile] puddingemote 2017-04-10 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Tamaki hesitates, because he's normally willing to listen to Joker, but that doesn't sound right at all. This doesn't look like the work of allergies, or any other inconsequential illness Tamaki knows of. It just looks like, well, like Joker is crying, a lot.]

Um, are you sure, Manager? [He knows Joker probably won't like it, but he comes closer, so he can better see Joker's face in the gloom.] I can go get someone... uh, you're dating someone? [He thinks it might be the Psiionic because he called him cute that one time.] So I can go get him. [Yeah he's basically assuming that now.]
puddingemote: (i don't know where i belong)

[personal profile] puddingemote 2017-04-17 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Stop it! Don't say that!

[Tamaki can't help the sudden raise in his volume or the heat in his tone. He can tell Joker is not fine, that he's being lied to, and he's frustrated because he doesn't know what to do. Joker wants to keep insisting that nothing's wrong, so Tamaki doesn't know what exactly is wrong-

He punches a tree.

Maybe a little too hard, because the sturdy plant makes his hand smart immediately, the skin on his knuckles scraped. He doesn't regret it, though - taking his frustration out on the tree is better than taking it out on anyone else, Joker himself in particular.]

I'm going to go get him. [It's better than staying here and messing up, even though he doesn't want to leave Joker alone.] Okay? Stay here.
puddingemote: (i don't know where i belong)

[personal profile] puddingemote 2017-04-20 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[The bloody eyes, faint as it may be, similarly stun Tamaki for a moment. Not quite realizing it's a vampirism side-effect, Tamaki can't help but feel his panic rise. Joker has been bleeding. That has to be bad.

But at least Tamaki's yelling has temporarily stunned Joker into submission. Tamaki doesn't like that he did that, but he can't deny it was effective.

He hesitates for one second longer, then takes off running. Having a radio would make this easier, and luckily his trailer isn't too far away.

He manages to garble out something that mostly consists of, "Manager, trees, was bleeding, said it was allergies, lying, needs help." It's in the Psionic's hands now.]