Steven wishes he knew what he wanted. Or at least, he wishes what he wanted didn't lead down a path of inevitable pain. He just wants it to be over with so he doesn't have to think about it anymore, because something about the whole idea weighs on him heavily.

After a while if feeling uncomfortable, he leans against Greg. Ginko had said that body heat could help. Maybe he should just suck it up and go all the way. Maybe a few hours of pain would be better than even more hours of somewhat less pain.

"Ginko said body heat could help," Steven suggests halfheartedly. "Maybe... Maybe it would be better that way."

Part of it is that he'd just like a hug.