Very awkwardly, Strange jams his hands in his pockets as he continues to talk.
"I know you'd try," he admits. Yuya would try no matter what, that's just the sort of person he is. "And I know that Ignatius would try as well." Because Ignatius came back for him when Strange was captured by the Twelve in Eden and honestly, that's the kindest and most touching thing that's happened to Strange in ages.
"And I know that if she were with us, the Ringmaster would find a way, just because of that 'no carnival member left behind' sort of attitude she had." Which Strange still respects even though he's still mad at the Ringmaster for not telling them about the Courts thing and things are complicated, okay. "But she's not here any more and I'm well aware that a mad magician with a tendency of finding trouble isn't the top of anyone's priority list and...I just..."
He stammers for a bit, lost for words, before it's Strange's turn to sniffle a little and try to blink back tears. "It's dumb and nonsensical, I know, but I just want to be someone in the carnival's top priority. And I'm not. And I doubt I'll ever be, and I don't know what to do about it."
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"I know you'd try," he admits. Yuya would try no matter what, that's just the sort of person he is. "And I know that Ignatius would try as well." Because Ignatius came back for him when Strange was captured by the Twelve in Eden and honestly, that's the kindest and most touching thing that's happened to Strange in ages.
"And I know that if she were with us, the Ringmaster would find a way, just because of that 'no carnival member left behind' sort of attitude she had." Which Strange still respects even though he's still mad at the Ringmaster for not telling them about the Courts thing and things are complicated, okay. "But she's not here any more and I'm well aware that a mad magician with a tendency of finding trouble isn't the top of anyone's priority list and...I just..."
He stammers for a bit, lost for words, before it's Strange's turn to sniffle a little and try to blink back tears. "It's dumb and nonsensical, I know, but I just want to be someone in the carnival's top priority. And I'm not. And I doubt I'll ever be, and I don't know what to do about it."