He can't help but scowl a little as Yuya says that he doesn't want him as much. It's technically true: he does want to be with Arabella most of all. But it still hurts.

"What do you want me to say?" he snaps, finally failing at keeping his cool. "That I'd abandon my wife for the carnival? That I would forsake the person who I've done everything for, who I've loved my whole life in exchange for people that I've barely known for a year?" He laughs a little, putting his hand to his head as if to stave off a headache.

"God, how I wish I could do that so you would stop thinking of how heartless I am and I wouldn't have to make this choice in the first place. But I can't."