Yuya's maybe just become too numb to the suffering, unable to figure out if his own is deserved or not. This, at least, he thinks he probably made the right decision not to stay.

Yuya rests Gon's hand in his lap as he holds onto his, closing his eyes and breathing deep. "I hope. I'm not going to stop working for that yet."

He opens his eyes, looking between Rin and Steven. And he pauses, blinking at the latter. "Get used to it?"