"I don't want to." The barest hint of frustration edged into his voice, and slipped away just as quickly. His tail swept over his legs, then back again.

"...Believe me, I'd love to be able to think that things can just... stay how they have been. But even if it's got nothing to do with the mushi-- things have already started changing."

The fight with Psi, and its underlying cause. Joker's breakdown, and his silence since then. That entire, stupid argument with Sans-- why couldn't he have just kept his mouth shut?

You're here clinging to false dreams, playing at the fantasy of a "normal life".