Yuya tries to smile, though it comes out sadly despite his intentions. There is still some part of him capable of it, and it makes him sick. But he can't give into thinking about it. Maybe that's the way it went the first time... he tried to accept it as normal even when he hated it, until it was him. He won't make that mistake again.

He ducks his head and rubs his eyes when he feels tears coming, trying to stay at least a little composed. But there's still a waver in his voice he can't quite control. "Okay, and what kind of idiot am I now?"