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[wild_magic]

Who: Lauren and Susan (again)
Where: their trailer (again)
When: a while ago! (aka after susan was found in the dream realm and brought back)
What: more brother shenanigans (again)

Susan wasn't sure why, but everything hurt. He thought he had just been sleeping, but that wouldn't explain this... He slowly opens his eyes, blinking as he looks around at their trailer, trying to figure out what happened. Did he forget something important?

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[mylastchance]

Lauren looks away. The expression of hurt and confusion on Susan's face is difficult to look at. It only makes him feel even worse.

"It wasn't you."

[wild_magic]

He shakes his head, looking away.

"It was, I did it. I remember..."

[mylastchance]

"You do?"

He thought he didn't. Maybe he didn't realize it until now? What must it have felt like, to not be in control of yourself?

[wild_magic]

He nods a little. He'd figured (hoped?) that it was a dream, and maybe it kind of was... But it also was real, it seemed.

"I do... I remember fighting you."

[mylastchance]

He hesitates, unsure what to say. He looks to Susan, studying his face as though he'll be able to find the words there, but he doesn't. It doesn't matter, all he needs to do is tell the truth.

"I remember the fight too and I know that wasn't you."

[wild_magic]

"But it was. It was my magic."

It's not often that his magic is something he sees as bad at all. He loves his magic, it's a part of him and it sets him apart from everyone else. But when it's turned against himself or someone he cares about, he can't help but think a bit badly of it.

[mylastchance]

"But you didn't cast it. You'd never attack me or any other innocent person. I know that."

It doesn't make any difference to Lauren who's magic it was. The person in control, the person casting the magic, that was the person that had hurt them. Susan was just an unfortunate bystander.

[wild_magic]

He's quiet after that, for a few long moments, before speaking again.

"It's still mine."

It's not that he doesn't understand what Lauren means, but he still can't help but feel it's at least a little bit his fault.

[mylastchance]

He looks away. He's frustrated, but not at Susan. He's mad at himself for being unable to convince his brother this wasn't his fault. He shifts, moving to pull the covers back.

"It's okay... No one blames you."

He scoots into bed beside his brother, pulling the blankets back around them both.

[wild_magic]

Susan scoots over to let his brother in, staying quiet. He doesn't like feeling like things are his fault, especially things he can't help, but he can't stop. At least if he remembered it better or had actually done it himself, maybe he could feel differently. As it is, he just feels a bit lost and guilty.