...I do get what you're saying. [That reasoning sounds all too familiar, actually.] But I can't agree with it.
Tormenting yourself... doesn't help anyone. It can't change the past, no matter how much you might want to. There are better ways to make up for what you may have done wrong, even if they don't feel like much. I... can't claim to know what's happened before, let alone tell you how to feel about it. But I know you now. I know you're an important part of this place, and that you care about the people here, and that they care about you.
You're doing good here. That's more important than torturing yourself over whatever you may have done wrong, no matter how much you might feel like you deserve it - or whatever you might do to try and hide it.
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Tormenting yourself... doesn't help anyone. It can't change the past, no matter how much you might want to. There are better ways to make up for what you may have done wrong, even if they don't feel like much. I... can't claim to know what's happened before, let alone tell you how to feel about it. But I know you now. I know you're an important part of this place, and that you care about the people here, and that they care about you.
You're doing good here. That's more important than torturing yourself over whatever you may have done wrong, no matter how much you might feel like you deserve it - or whatever you might do to try and hide it.