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Taako ([personal profile] tacosgay) wrote in [community profile] lostcarnival2017-11-14 09:25 pm
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please eat

Who: Taako and Foster toaster
When: B1: D2ish???
Where: The toaster oven aka trailer 18.
What: Foster is half-starved and Taako, as a fat chef, is insulted. Also lowkey concerned.
Warnings: Foster. Lots of food/body talk is likely, disordered eating of a sort, etc. Lots of food issues, basically. Also, Taako and Foster in the same room, so probably gross talk and lots of swearing.



It isn't with very much care to be gentle that Taako drops Foster onto his bed; honestly, he doesn't imagine being dropped like a sack of potatoes could potentially damage him any more than he already is, and Foster would probably pitch a fit if he took too much care with him anyway. After depositing him there, he sits beside him, propping a hand at his hip to look down at him almost tiredly.

"Alright, what's the deal, my dude? What've you done to yourself now, and are you going to get super pissed if I do anything about it, or should I just fuck off?"

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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-15 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
Foster is frustrated that the injuries he's sporting from Flowey are so small, and to some extent he's not even listening to Taako by the time Taako starts talking to him. He is thrown more or less unceremoniously onto his bed and he just sort of lies there where he lands, an unattractive pile of open sores and claws, bare skin, and bones. He can feel, somehow, the angles of his bones--the sting of a bleeding wound against the air is basically a pinprick that he loses quickly. This is what so disappoints him.

Instead he aches, in an indefinable way that doesn't feel like his muscles, but somehow has to be because it isn't his bones or his flesh. It's as though the spaces between his his muscles, the folds within them are filled with weight and something not quite but just shy of actual pain. He wants to lie down but he's already lying down--the sensation of voracious acid inside of him clocks in a close second.

He can still feel the room has tilted, or is spinning, or in any case he's better off closing his eyes than he is keeping them open, which only further shuts Taako out of his awareness.

And by the time he doesn't feel like he's about to turn inside out, he's forgotten Taako is even there.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-15 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
That works--or it certainly reminds Foster that Taako exists, and his eyes open again. For his trouble, Taako's fingertips are not wet with Foster's blood; Foster stares at him, visibly unhappy, before managing speech.

"Why are you still here?"

He's so tired. Full-body tired, every limb, every bone five--no, ten pound heavier. And there are so many bones to weigh him down. He feels like if he could just... vomit it up, vomit the nothing up, then he could be fine. Fine enough to take more. Fine enough to worry about it. He's not supposed to be fine. He stares at Taako and waits for a response, his eyes bleary but focused.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-15 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
"Nnnnno," Foster says, slowly. He's thinking back. Tasks of memory are... not his favourite.

"No, I ate--I ate an onion. My reward--but only one. Only one." He repeats the number--one--with a kind of arrogant bitterness, a recognition of his servitude, a reflection of his failure. One onion, charred. But even the one--

Normally Foster cannot recover the experience of a feeling after its moment, but he does have half an echo--no, less, an echo's echo... an echo's echo's echo, even, of that moment. Lambert's award to him... it was almost like pride, though of course that was a bit more of a feeling than Foster was ever entitled to. Something growing and good, at any rate, a kind of.. unblemished sensation, the real form of his pleasure. He does not even begin to have the energy to remember how to say any of that. He's never known how.

But the fact that he was, by that point, beginning to be aware of his own literal starvation was only part of it.

Taako's impending scorn will be unable to mar that moment for him.

He knows that for a fact.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-15 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Foster is poisoned now, but that's really not the issue. Or it isn't enough of the problem; he graces Taako with an entire second of tired stare before he closes his eyes. He knows what Taako is trying to say.

"I don't--I don't deserve, I don't deserve to eat," he rises halfway off the bed, immediately regrets it, and falls back. But in the same breath, he dismisses Taako's fake concern irritably. "I won't starve to death."

A pause.

"Not unless the Ringmaster commands it." In which case, well, that's not up to him. He hasn't yet spoken to her, but he means to. Soon.

Soon, that is, if she leaves it up to him--a test, maybe. Although she's already emerged victorious, so it's quite possible she's forgotten about his worthlessness.

As long as she leaves it up to him, he has already decided that he'll wait a few days and continue to punish himself first. Only then will he malign her space with his worthless presence--penitent, but ready to accept her choice of punishment.
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TW: This got NSFW because Taako's a horndog thanks Taako

[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-16 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
Foster opens his eyes again, wearing something pretending to be a smile.

"So that's why you were looking for me!"

As far as Foster can tell, Taako's interest in him is almost entirely sexual. Which is perfectly normal, to him. It's not a use unique to Taako. Quite the opposite; sexual encounters are the only truly successful and rewarding forms of contact he has with other people; by and large, the only acceptable use most people find for him is as a warm place to put their dicks. Or, you know, something warm to put inside themselves. And the 'almost' means Foster would really rather direct Taako's less savoury interest in him towards more libidinous designs--designs which are easily turned into something that satisfies his own urges. The only downside is that Taako still forgets Foster's place in things.

Which is where his objections comes in.

And the appearance of epiphany is replaced with venom.

"My state is--is irrelevant."
Edited 2017-11-17 02:08 (UTC)
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2017-11-30 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"You didn't come off as the nanny type," Foster's tone carries a hint of venom.

Taako is right, of course; Foster loves the way Taako uses him, the way he takes Foster by the throat and sates those urges deep within him. He gets more out of the way Taako holds him down and does whatever he wants to Foster and his body than he does any feeble attempts at 'compromise.'

It's very... completing.

Taako had actually seemed to grasp what mattered and what didn't, when it came to that.

He's simply served best by any arrangement in which he fills a role of base gratifications, a biddable object. And sex is an arrangement anyone can understand.

Which is why Taako's resistance (pretense?) leaves him especially sour.

"Not a good look for you."

Then again, maybe he's just feeling particularly useless--and thereby particularly hungry for it.
Edited 2017-11-30 18:02 (UTC)
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-10 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
Foster doesn't even respond this time; he raises one paw feebly and smacks the bed a couple of times in a pathetic attempt to find a pillow or blanket or something--but he strikes the wall instead, gouging a chunk of paper off and making a noise loud enough to startle himself quite badly.

"Fuck--!!" The volume of his rage is entirely disproportionate to the event itself--and in further rage, he lashes out at the wall again, this time deliberately taking it out on the trailer with his claws.

"Fuck, fuck, FUCK!!"
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-10 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
"Ah--" Foster is startled enough to stop, and his back arches slightly, his claws scraping against the wall as if in protest.
The sharpness of Taako's fingernails as they dig past fur and into tender skin, the painful pressure of his fingers over cartilage and nerves--

He's tense and taut, leaning into the pain rather than trying to escape it: the epicentre alive with piercing pain, the edges burning hot like electricity, radiating along the perimetre of his ear--

"Aggh..." He breathes it aloud, but doesn't fight Taako at all.

".....fuck," he mumbles again.

It's a very different tone this time, though.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-10 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
No, he is not, and he doesn't pretend to be. He stiffens slightly when asked, then pulls away angrily.

Instead of answering, he very deliberately lets his head fall back onto the bed, turning away from the elf and bending his ear and pinning it to the mattress before pressing the side of his face against the point where Taako broke the skin. It's not as painful as when Taako was actually digging his nail in, but there's a sting and a slight ache, and he takes some comfort in it.

He's ignoring Taako, basically.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-10 05:48 pm (UTC)(link)
While the ethics are probably questionable, it is, undeniably, the most helpful thing Taako could have done right then.

Foster makes a surprised sound, tensing out of instinct, but almost immediately relaxes into it--a peculiar combination of actions made all the stranger for the fact that there's an internal strain, invisibly held in equal measure to how much relief he visibly gets from Taako's small abuses.

He cracks one eye, but doesn't say anything--just stares at Taako for a moment as though blearily sizing him up.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-10 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
In a way, it's like his entire consciousness lives in his ears, in the wet heat of blood against and under his cheekbone, in the sharp sting of each press and its immediate fade as Taako moves across the furry surface of his ear. If he could only live like this, could feel himself in pain--

Foster doesn't receive the smile as poorly as he often does; he doesn't quite return it, but he doesn't feel that quickness of rage, the horrible spark either. He just blinks back, once, then lets his eyes fall close, catching his breath at the hard scrape of a manicured nail dragged over the skin of his already-sensitive ear, his face stoic even as he finds both relish and relief in that sensation.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-14 10:14 am (UTC)(link)
Foster was nowhere near falling asleep, obviously, but he had more or less stopped responding, save for the occasional sharp intake of breath or hiss of pain whenever Taako's fingers broke the skin or passed over a particularly sore bit of ear. Once Taako did something that sent a second, illusory vein of sensation down his side and back and he did writhe, like an obscene kind of shudder, on the bed, but--

He almost doesn't process the words, and when he does, he kind of doesn't grasp what's being asked of him at first. So when he opens his one eye and blearily asks "what?" it comes out a little dull. More like 'whut?'
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-18 09:08 am (UTC)(link)
Foster's capable of hearing tone at least some of the time, but he's not very bright when it comes to deciphering people's motives, and so not entirely sure why Taako is so amused. He would have expected the elf to be angry, or repulsed, but this is... sort of disorienting, surreal maybe. He can only assume it's some sort of... humour at his expense? Which is fine, even if the joke is not wholly comprehensible to him.

His entire ear is, at this point, raw-feeling, comprised of nothing but one large, deep bruise just under the skin. It's... a good feeling. He is... so aware of it, not just the pain (though there is so much pain in it; it hurts, every throbbing pulse and the sharpness of air through the fur covering his over-sensitive skin) but the entire ear, its full shape and structure, up to where to joins to his head--by which point it quickly fades off and he doesn't feel much of anything except the much less intense ache where he's pinned part of his other ear under his face. He knows there's an ear there, at least.

His eyes open a little more, his tail jerking up off the bed before falling back against the sheet with a furry sort of smack.

"I can't," he says simply, his voice cracking slightly--not from emotion, but from the dryness and tension of misuse.

"Haven't... haven't earned my keep." There's a kind of coldness there, a rare unsatisfactory contempt.
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-19 08:19 am (UTC)(link)
... ah, there it is. That look of disgust. Not being able to see the blood under Taako's nails, he is... relieved? Bitter? Gratified? Watching the elf leave, abandoning the mistake he's just made. He doesn't need to see blood to smell it, though. Or maybe he's imagining--hallucinating? Dreaming? But he can feel something wet about his ear, be it serrous fluids or actual blood.

It's more of a surprise when Taako comes back--and comes back with something in his hand, no less, a square of white terry that Foster initially assumes to be soaked in something like chloroform. When it touches his ear--and it stings, warm and damp in a different way, but not sharp enough to be an alcohol--he pulls away to look at Taako a little more directly.

"You know what my job is, right?" He manages to say this more or less coherently, which is impressive considering how much trouble he's having with the concentration required to focus on Taako's face.

"I take out the trash. I scrub and clean toilets."
Edited 2018-01-19 08:35 (UTC)
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[personal profile] criticallyfucked 2018-01-26 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
"There is no bar," Foster replies, suddenly heated--in the same way oil is heated in a lamp, by burning it, Taako has apparently reignited something volatile in him. "It doesn't matter what shape I'm in."

Not just the crackling of embers but the thick, black tar of disgust. "I'm not a custodian, I'm a fuckup. So it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter because I'm worthless anyway! I fucked up."

He's increasingly and angry and miserable as this conversation goes on; his ears are throbbing, hot, sharp and aching pain in equal measure--he could immerse himself, drown in it, if Taako would just let him.