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okumura rin >> the son of satan ([personal profile] flashover) wrote in [community profile] lostcarnival2018-08-26 01:47 pm

blinded by the light [closed]

Who: Rin and Yukio, possibly Herbert and Shura later!
When: Day 90
Where: Med tent
What: Rin's eyes have "healed" after Lilith struck him blind, but he still can't see. He has a crazy idea -- and what does he have to lose?
Warnings: **EYE HORROR**!!

Ever since having his Pokémon and sword returned to him by the Ringmaster, Rin had been relying heavily on the Flygon. He had barely walked anywhere since recovering from the prism, instead riding on Nosh's back. He really just wanted her to lead him around, but the dragon insisted. She even let him hold on to her antenna, which she usually found to be quite unpleasant. Kuro was rarely very far, either.

It was a very unsettling feeling. He knew he was holding his hand out, right in front of his face -- but he couldn't see it. He couldn't see anything. At first, while his eyes were healing from the damage Lilith had done, he would occasionally see flashes of light, sparkles. Ghosts of electrical impulses as his brain rewired.

Now, the pain in his eyes was completely gone, along with the small flashes of light. Now there was nothing except pure, infinite darkness. So his demonic healing had "fixed" his eyes. But he still wasn't able to see. His eyes -- these particular eyes -- would never see again.

He could just ask the Ringmaster to fix them, but he wasn't even sure she could! He had one more idea... and what did he have to lose? His vision was already completely gone. It couldn't get any worse.


He carefully slides off of Nosh's back, still holding one of her antenna so she could guide him. She folds her wings tightly and ducks into the tent.

He'd warned Yukio he was coming with a quick radio message, and he'd tied a bandana around his eyes. He can smell the medical tent -- bleach and sanitizers and freshly laundered sheets and the barest hints of blood -- and, to his surprise, he can almost 'sense' his brother. He knows he's nearby. He doesn't quite know how, but he's definitely there.

Regardless, he calls out, sounding more depressed and withdrawn than ever;

"Hey, Yukio. I'm here."

He'd told Yukio he had a plan -- but he hadn't revealed what his plan was. Not yet.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 05:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Yukio is always some background level of stressed, no matter where he is. But being away from familiar places and roles never helps it, and coming back to somewhere he recognizes is enough to let him take a deep breath and re-center himself. He cleans the med tent, checks and maintains his herbarium (Shiemi had helped a little bit, and he wants to make sure it's even better if--), takes a moment to practice archery, goes back to the med tent, takes a call from Rin, tries to breathe. He's tired.

But it's not going to get better, especially with Rin's blindness and completely unexplained 'plan'.

Rin comes in, with Nosh, and Yukio's tongue flicks out, long and blue-black and forked. Unsurprisingly, he smells Rin and the pokemon. Surprisingly, Rin sounds... sort of how Yukio feels, but with less bite to his tone.

"Nii-san. How are you doing?" Yukio's speech isn't too impaired by the alteration to his mouth, but he's still not completely confident in his ability to pronounce things clearly.
Edited 2018-08-27 17:12 (UTC)
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Yukio really doesn't want the insect in the tent, but there's no point in ever trying to separate an exorcist and their familiar if the familiar isn't causing real problems, and Rin and Nosh basically follow those rules.

He'd like to get mad at Rin, to tell his brother he's in this position because he was being an irresponsible idiot, but... it's not worth it, and it probably isn't even accurate. Rin's capture wasn't entirely his fault, and Yukio's safety was just dumb luck.

"What did you want to try to help restore your vision?"
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
As soon as Rin pulls off the bandana, Yukio's mind starts turning. And as Rin starts talking, says whatever healing was gonna happen already did, Yukio knows what his brother's going to ask him to do.

He spends the rest of the time that Rin's talking thinking about how he's going to do this, the tools he needs and the cuts he'll make. He takes a step closer, and tilts Rin's chin up with one hand, to get a better look at his eyes. His tongue brushes against Rin's cheek, because apparently the stupid thing just flicks more frequently when he's concentrating.

"All right." He wonders if Rin really understands what he's asking, if he realizes that a meister in Doctor and a few months reading medical textbooks don't actually mean that Yukio knows what he's doing. He's just very good at faking it, and he manages to sound calm about the idea, like it's not any worse than putting a bandaid on a scrape. "Do you know how well general anesthesia works on you?"
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"The medicine that knocks you out for surgery." Yukio explains, without bothering to correct Rin's pronunciation (or misconception about what the words actually are).

"I don't want you waking up in the middle of it." Which would be... really terrible. He'll just have to ask Herbert if he knows the recommended dose for a teenage boy with rapid healing.

"I'll probably need Doctor West's assistance with the surgery." An admission of weakness, but not too much. "It's going to be complicated."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
"We could try a local anesthesia." Yukio doesn't like the idea of localized anesthesia for this, just because he doesn't know what he's doing. He'd rather knock Rin completely out, in case something goes wrong. But... it's always riskier to put someone completely under. There's too much to consider here, he'll have to talk to West and ask for advice. "I promise I won't let him do anything weird."

In contrast to his level tone, his hand is clammy, and his clawed fingers return the pressure a little bit too tightly. But he does return that reassuring squeeze instead of just pulling away.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"Tomorrow morning." He isn't going to do this tonight. He needs to read, and prep the tent, and discuss the surgery with West, and... well, he needs to sleep. He can't do delicate surgery if he's this tired, and he isn't going to rush the job just because Rin can heal.

"If you want to stay here for the night, you can."
Edited 2018-08-27 20:02 (UTC)
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-27 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's right. Also make sure you bathe, I don't want to spend the entire surgery wondering why everything smells like cooking oil."

The next morning, Yukio is back in the med tent early, after conferring with Herbert, reading up on what he has to do, and actually (somehow) getting some sleep. He can't let this get to him.

"Are you ready, nii-san?"
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-08-29 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
Really, Rin? Yukio shakes his head. "There's nothing to worry about, nii-san."

Except the animals in the tent. Yukio waves Nosh and Kuro off, or tries to. "Kuro, you two need to leave. I'll bring my brother back to his trailer after the procedure, you can meet him there."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-12 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
Yukio crouches down to pet Kuro between the horns (it might have been a stupid, inebriated comment, but he did loudly tell the demon that they were siblings) and tries to explain.

"You can wait just outside, Kuro, and I'll come get you and Nosh when I'm done."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-12 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
"Nosh and I haven't... had much of a chance to get to know each other." Yukio says, sort of an agreement with that last statement. His tongue flicks out as he watches them go, and then again as he turns back to Rin. It's a new habit carried over from his snake form, tasting the air as he thinks.

"If you're ready, we can get started."

He's ready, the anesthesia and all his tools gathered up, and he takes Rin by the elbow and leads him into the corner of the tent curtained off and carefully (obsessively) cleaned for the surgery.

"Take this, and then lie down." He says, pressing two pills into Rin's hand, a sedative that should keep Rin mostly conscious but calm (if it works with Rin's half-demon biology). "In about fifteen minutes, I'm going to inject anesthesia into your right eye, and then fifteen minutes after that, I'll check for effectiveness and start the surgery."

More detail than he usually gives a patient, but if he answers Rin's questions before he asks, it will go more smoothly. He can do this. Failure isn't an option.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-12 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
Rin pokes himself in the eye, which is an effective way of demonstrating the lack of feeling, but gets a frown from his twin.

"All right," he says, when Rin looks like he's about to fall asleep. "I'm going to inject the anesthesia now."

Yukio isn't confident, not really. He presses a gloved finger against the skin below Rin's right eye to find the first injection site (inferior orbital notch), and then injects the anesthesia (5ml, parallel to the orbital floor, slowly and carefully to ensure the entire area is numbed). Then the next injection (supraorbital notch this time, the same amount and technique).

"I'm going to start the surgery in about fifteen minutes."

If the anesthesia works. If it doesn't... Yukio's considered his other options, but they aren't ideal.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-13 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
"I need you to stay still, nii-san," Yukio says, gently grabbing Rin by the wrist and moving his hand away from his face. "This is going to be uncomfortable, but if you try and touch your face I'll have to tie your arms down."

Yukio checks that everything is in place one more time, scrubs his hands again, wipes the skin around Rin's eye clean with an iodine solution, and picks up the eye speculum. Putting it in place, he checks in with Rin again.

"It will be uncomfortable, but it shouldn't hurt. If it does, tell me right away."

A peritomy is the first step, cutting through the conjunctiva with a small pair of scissors. He can't turn back now. He keeps cutting, separating the sclera from the capsule that surrounds the eyeball. His hands are steady, his breathing is calm, and he's read enough about this procedure that he knows he can do this.

He hooks a rectus muscle and cuts it. Rin's going to heal from this, even if Yukio doesn't stick close to the textbook instructions and just lets the muscle retract. One down, three to go. If the anesthesia isn't working, this is where he'll find out.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-13 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
Rin's reaction is reassuring, and it's certainly helping Yukio stay calm and confident here. He hooks and clips the other muscles, checks that the orb rotates freely, then pulls the eye out and clips the optic nerve. This is where most of the bleeding happens, and he has to stop himself from trying to stop it, because he doesn't want to interfere with Rin's demonic healing.

"... are you falling asleep, nii-san?" Yukio can't imagine being that calm in Rin's place, even with the sedation.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-13 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Is that--?

Yukio knew Rin's healing was fast, but that's incredible. Yukio injects the anesthesia into the other eye, and then as he waits for it to kick in, he watches that eye grow back.

If he had healing like that...
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-13 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
The second enucleation goes just as smoothly as the first, and afterwards, Yukio carefully cleans and bandages Rin's eyes (as much as he can, with that healing kicking in), cleans up, and then goes out to the front of the tent.

"Kuro?"
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-13 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
Yukio crouches down in front of Kuro, and pets the demon.

"Everything went well. My brother's sleeping now, so please don't wake him if you decide to go in."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-09-14 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Yukio sits back at his desk, after making sure that he can see Rin clearly from where he's sitting. There's nothing he can do now except wait. The surgery went well, Rin's calmly sleeping off the sedation, and Yukio just sits and waits and tries to focus on the medical textbook he's working through. He keeps reading the same page over and over and getting nothing.

When Rin stirs, Yukio puts his book down, stands up, and goes over to check on him.
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-10-08 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
"Nii-san. How are you feeling?" Yukio puts a hand on Rin's shoulder, just to reassure his brother. "Kuro and Nosh are here as well."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-10-08 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
"It went very smoothly." Far more smoothly than Yukio expected. He'd anticipated something going completely wrong. "I don't know how long recovery will take, so I want you to come back to the med tent daily so I can keep an eye on it."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-10-08 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
Rin's recognition of the joke gets a little relieved breath of laugh from Yukio.

"One of us has to."
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[personal profile] reflash 2018-10-08 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"Just don't touch it." The last thing anyone needs is for Rin to shove a finger in there.

"Are you ready to go back to your trailer or would you like to stay here for a while longer?"