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blinded by the light [closed]

Who: Rin and Yukio, possibly Herbert and Shura later!
When: Day 90
Where: Med tent
What: Rin's eyes have "healed" after Lilith struck him blind, but he still can't see. He has a crazy idea -- and what does he have to lose?
Warnings: **EYE HORROR**!!

Ever since having his Pokémon and sword returned to him by the Ringmaster, Rin had been relying heavily on the Flygon. He had barely walked anywhere since recovering from the prism, instead riding on Nosh's back. He really just wanted her to lead him around, but the dragon insisted. She even let him hold on to her antenna, which she usually found to be quite unpleasant. Kuro was rarely very far, either.

It was a very unsettling feeling. He knew he was holding his hand out, right in front of his face -- but he couldn't see it. He couldn't see anything. At first, while his eyes were healing from the damage Lilith had done, he would occasionally see flashes of light, sparkles. Ghosts of electrical impulses as his brain rewired.

Now, the pain in his eyes was completely gone, along with the small flashes of light. Now there was nothing except pure, infinite darkness. So his demonic healing had "fixed" his eyes. But he still wasn't able to see. His eyes -- these particular eyes -- would never see again.

He could just ask the Ringmaster to fix them, but he wasn't even sure she could! He had one more idea... and what did he have to lose? His vision was already completely gone. It couldn't get any worse.

He carefully slides off of Nosh's back, still holding one of her antenna so she could guide him. She folds her wings tightly and ducks into the tent.

He'd warned Yukio he was coming with a quick radio message, and he'd tied a bandana around his eyes. He can smell the medical tent -- bleach and sanitizers and freshly laundered sheets and the barest hints of blood -- and, to his surprise, he can almost 'sense' his brother. He knows he's nearby. He doesn't quite know how, but he's definitely there.

Regardless, he calls out, sounding more depressed and withdrawn than ever;

"Hey, Yukio. I'm here."

He'd told Yukio he had a plan -- but he hadn't revealed what his plan was. Not yet.

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"You should hang out more! I'll let you fly her sometime. It's a lot of fun," he says, cheerfully, hiding his nervousness. It wasn't that he didn't trust Yukio -- he trusted his brother with his life.

But that didn't make the whole thing less nerve wracking. The least he could do was hide his unease.

He nods his affirmation, and lets Yukio lead him to the table. He rolls the pills around in his hand, then swallows them obediently before lying down. It takes him a moment, but he gets settled and removes his blindfold, once again revealing the milky, sightless eyes.

"Sounds good! Ah, I can't really feel my eyes anymore anyway..." he says, poking one directly with the pad of his finger. He could feel pressure, but the expected sensation of burning and stinging that would usually accompany poking an eye directly were very dull. Dead eyes indeed.

Thankfully, the drugs do seem to take effect, Rin's demon physiology amazingly not eating up the sedation like candy. As they first start to kick in, Rin feels a little dizzy, maybe even nauseated. He squirms uncomfortably on the table. But soon, he feels his worries about the procedure fade away, replaced by a warm and comfortable buzzing haze. He feels his breathing even out, his heart-rate slow, and his brain check out in favor of resting in the sedative's cottony embrace. He could almost fall asleep like this...

Rin pokes himself in the eye, which is an effective way of demonstrating the lack of feeling, but gets a frown from his twin.

"All right," he says, when Rin looks like he's about to fall asleep. "I'm going to inject the anesthesia now."

Yukio isn't confident, not really. He presses a gloved finger against the skin below Rin's right eye to find the first injection site (inferior orbital notch), and then injects the anesthesia (5ml, parallel to the orbital floor, slowly and carefully to ensure the entire area is numbed). Then the next injection (supraorbital notch this time, the same amount and technique).

"I'm going to start the surgery in about fifteen minutes."

If the anesthesia works. If it doesn't... Yukio's considered his other options, but they aren't ideal.

Yukio's voice snaps him back to (hampered, fuzzy) consciousness for a moment, and Rin gives a woozy thumbs up, "Ooooooooohkey-dokey smokey pokeyyyy."

The injection itself has a sharp, pinchy pain to it, and Rin scrunches up his face a little. It reminds him of going to the dentist, a little.

Just a quick pinch--

And just like at the dentist, within a few minutes, he feels a warmth creep along his eye-socket and eyelids.

"Ahhh..." he says, poking the skin around his eye. "wwwweeeeeird."

"I need you to stay still, nii-san," Yukio says, gently grabbing Rin by the wrist and moving his hand away from his face. "This is going to be uncomfortable, but if you try and touch your face I'll have to tie your arms down."

Yukio checks that everything is in place one more time, scrubs his hands again, wipes the skin around Rin's eye clean with an iodine solution, and picks up the eye speculum. Putting it in place, he checks in with Rin again.

"It will be uncomfortable, but it shouldn't hurt. If it does, tell me right away."

A peritomy is the first step, cutting through the conjunctiva with a small pair of scissors. He can't turn back now. He keeps cutting, separating the sclera from the capsule that surrounds the eyeball. His hands are steady, his breathing is calm, and he's read enough about this procedure that he knows he can do this.

He hooks a rectus muscle and cuts it. Rin's going to heal from this, even if Yukio doesn't stick close to the textbook instructions and just lets the muscle retract. One down, three to go. If the anesthesia isn't working, this is where he'll find out.

"Oooouuuhhhh... don't do thaaaaat..." he whines, not wanting to have his hand tied up. That sounds unpleasant, and so far this hasn't been unpleasant at all!

So he wiggles into place a bit, putting his hands under his back and butt and laying on them so he isn't tempted.

While Yukio preps the area, Rin simply yawns, his other eye closing in rest. If he's almost falling asleep through the procedure, that's probably a good thing.

This would probably be utterly terrifying, even sedated, if Rin could see. As it is, though, everything is just darkness anyway. All he can feel is pressure, the movement of his eye as Yukio manipulates it, and a pop of release as he cuts one of the muscles holding the globe in place. The dead eye lolls to the opposite side.

There's a splurt of blood as the muscle is cut, but it quickly abates thanks to demonic healing -- nothing a surgical gauze sponge can't easily soak up. Rin makes a face, and speaks sleepily.

"Ahh... it's weird, but it doesn't hurt at all... you're doing good..." yawnnnnn, "Yuuuukioooooo."

Rin's reaction is reassuring, and it's certainly helping Yukio stay calm and confident here. He hooks and clips the other muscles, checks that the orb rotates freely, then pulls the eye out and clips the optic nerve. This is where most of the bleeding happens, and he has to stop himself from trying to stop it, because he doesn't want to interfere with Rin's demonic healing.

"... are you falling asleep, nii-san?" Yukio can't imagine being that calm in Rin's place, even with the sedation.

There's definitely a lot more bleeding, but it stops after about three minutes. It's enough to fill the empty socket and leak out a bit from the medial canthus, but hardly the bloody mess it would be on your average human. Once the blood is soaked up, there's something... interesting at the cut end of the optic nerve.

A tiny little ball of tissue, about the size of a very small pea -- just a little dark colored bleb on the creamy white nerve stump. An eye, already growing back.

"Ahhh... it feels weird. So empty..." he takes one of his hands from behind his back and reaches up to touch the empty socket, but stops himself. He puts his hand back.

"... I'm not...! I'm.... definitely not."

He punctuates it with another yawn.

Is that--?

Yukio knew Rin's healing was fast, but that's incredible. Yukio injects the anesthesia into the other eye, and then as he waits for it to kick in, he watches that eye grow back.

If he had healing like that...

It's an eye! Probably... from the pigmentation and the shape and location, it probably has to be. However, it doesn't seem to be growing or changing. Eyes were complicated things, and it would take some time for this little bleb to be full-sized and functional/

But once the speculum is removed, the orbital fat that had formerly been cushioning the eye fills in the socket and hides the little eye from view.

Oh well. At least it was proof that Rin's theory was correct. If the eyes would be visual or if Lilith's curse would persist was yet to be seen...

Though, after the pinch of the second anesthesia, Rin's breathing gets deep and even. It seems like he really did fall asleep.

The second enucleation goes just as smoothly as the first, and afterwards, Yukio carefully cleans and bandages Rin's eyes (as much as he can, with that healing kicking in), cleans up, and then goes out to the front of the tent.

"Kuro?"

Rin snoozes through the whole second enucleation and continues sleeping as Yukio finishes up. Sedation is great. Sedation is so great.

Kuro is curled up on top of Nosh, who is, in turn, curled up in a spot of sunlight outside the tent. They both look a little haggard, like they'd tried to rest during the surgery, but didn't quite relax enough for that. Nosh's head lifts up and her antennae perk when she sees Yukio, and Kuro jumps down to go to his "brother", tails held high in greeting.

Yukio may not have Rin's demonic telepathy, but the curious "Myaaa?" and head tilt that Kuro gives him couldn't have a more obvious meaning.

How did it go? Is he ok?

Yukio crouches down in front of Kuro, and pets the demon.

"Everything went well. My brother's sleeping now, so please don't wake him if you decide to go in."

Kuro treads his forepaws happily, purring his thanks.

He will be as quiet as a church mouse!!

He informs Nosh of Yukio's instructions, and the pair of them head inside the tent, quietly. Kuro hops up on the bed table and lies against Rin's legs. Nosh puts her head on his belly. Both of them are clearly much more at ease.

And Rin is totally passed out, and will be until his sedatives wear off!

Yukio sits back at his desk, after making sure that he can see Rin clearly from where he's sitting. There's nothing he can do now except wait. The surgery went well, Rin's calmly sleeping off the sedation, and Yukio just sits and waits and tries to focus on the medical textbook he's working through. He keeps reading the same page over and over and getting nothing.

When Rin stirs, Yukio puts his book down, stands up, and goes over to check on him.

It's not a super long wait. Rin's demon physiology finally kick out the sedatives and he grumbles as he wakes. Though, Kuro has fallen asleep in his place.

"Mmmmrgh... Yukio....?"

"Nii-san. How are you feeling?" Yukio puts a hand on Rin's shoulder, just to reassure his brother. "Kuro and Nosh are here as well."

Kuro wakes up and stretches when Yukio walks over and trills so Rin knows he's here. Nosh also makes a small noise, but keeps her head on his belly.

"Mmmmrgh. My head kind of hurts... but nothing awful..." he touches the bandages on his eyes a bit, then seems to remember what happened. "Oh!! So.... it went smoothly, right?"

"It went very smoothly." Far more smoothly than Yukio expected. He'd anticipated something going completely wrong. "I don't know how long recovery will take, so I want you to come back to the med tent daily so I can keep an eye on it."

It takes a moment, thanks to a slight druggy haze, but Rin chuckles and then laughs.

"Hehehehe... Hehe.. An 'eye' on it..!"

Rin's recognition of the joke gets a little relieved breath of laugh from Yukio.

"One of us has to."

Yukio didn't joke often, but when he did, it was subtle little puns like that. It was also usually a good indicator of him being in a decent mood, so Rin has an even dopier smile on his face than usual.

"Maaa... ok. So come back daily for you to check it... anything else I should be doing?"

"Just don't touch it." The last thing anyone needs is for Rin to shove a finger in there.

"Are you ready to go back to your trailer or would you like to stay here for a while longer?"

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