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Ginko ([personal profile] dontpokethat) wrote in [community profile] lostcarnival2017-05-08 11:55 pm

but all this time i've been chasing down a lie

Who: Ginko and a whole bunch of people (Sans, Joker, Snake, Zecora, Tanyuu…)
What: In the aftermath of Foster’s shitty mushi plot, Ginko isn’t doing great.
When: From Day 90 onward
Where: Medical tent, trailer 13, and menagerie
Warnings: Possible talk of Foster’s shitty reasoning, also Ginko is a pile of depression and self-hatred in a trenchcoat.

Zecora - Medical Tent - Day 90 afternoon

Ginko was unconscious when Tanyuu first brought him in, bruised and scraped from the fight with Foster on top of his already being exhausted. After a certain point, though, he’s just… asleep, and remains that way through the night and well into the next day. The past few days - between the mushi leeching off his blood supply and the lack of sleep from trying to handle the infestations around the carnival and stressing himself out over them - have taken their toll.

Normally, he’d be pushing himself up the moment he woke up, always moving before his brain is even fully awake. But, today, he just lies there for a few seconds, staring up at the ceiling, before lifting a hand to press his palm over his face.

“...Shit.”

Tanyuu - Trailer 13

Once it’s been confirmed that he’s good to go (and he’s promised not to strain himself too much), Ginko and Tanyuu head back to their trailer. Of course, agreeing not to tire himself out more doesn’t mean Ginko isn’t going to want Tanyuu to catch him up on what happened while was out - what happened to Foster, what was being done about the repellent.

The whole time they’re talking, he keeps fidgeting, whether with his sleeves or his hair or just in the form of his tail twisting and lashing around his ankles. “So… things are being worked out, right? Just… that’s all I need to know.”

Snake - morning of Day 92 - Menagerie

By all rights, this should be the best off Ginko has been in the past several days. In a lot of ways, it is; with the mushi situation finally under control, things are more or less looking up - and, since the mushi that had been leeching off his blood are finally being removed, little by little, he should be feeling a lot better.

Should be. He is feeling better of course, but he’s still more tired than he’d normally expect, and getting himself to go back to work when the time comes proves something of a challenge. But it’s not like he’s never had this problem before, and he does get to the menagerie, albeit a little later than usual.

His ears flick forward when he sees Snake already there, and he gives a small wave as he heads over to watch him feed his snakes. “‘Morning. How are they doing?”

Joker - Menagerie

For all intents and purposes, Ginko seems to be settling back into his work as if everything is normal - though he may seem a little more singlemindedly focused on it when he’s working, and a little less focused on anything when he isn’t. Of course, he’s still having trouble bringing himself to seek out conversation outside of what’s necessary, but… that’s probably fine. Even now, part of him wonders if it might be for the best.

Even when cleaning out the enclosures, he doesn’t pause for long between stalls. Clear out the muck, wash what needs to be washed, change out bedding and food as necessary - it’s a simple, easy pattern to keep up. Like walking, putting one foot in front of the other; he doesn’t need to think for it.

Sometimes, not thinking can be a nice change of pace.

Sans - Barn

Breaks… might pose a problem. Theoretically he could just keep working through them, but the opportunity to pause for a while is more tempting than usual… even if as soon as he’s not working he starts wishing he were. He’s used to spending his breaks chatting, wandering around the carnival to visit with coworkers, but… no way. Not right now.

Which leaves one obvious solution. Going back to his trailer would take too long and probably get some questions from Tanyuu if she catches him. So, instead, he just… flops down on a pile of hay in the corner of the barn. He’s slept in worse places.
pipers_son: (bestia-domitor) (How do you say "get out of my)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-18 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Any other day, and it'd be kind of funny how Ginko freezes up at the sight of him as if he just popped out of nowhere like a ghost. However, with recent events, well... He straightens up a bit, ears flicking upwards in contrast to Ginko's droop and wings ruffling a little bit.

"Haven't been overworkin' yerself, have ya, Ginko?"
pipers_son: (bestia-domitor) (How do you say "get out of my)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-20 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"No offense, Ginko," he points out, "but I've been here for probably fifteen minutes, I think."

So, yeah. He's not really buying that. And he knows you, Ginko.
pipers_son: (leyline) (Why did I wake up to an event)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-23 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Fortunate, really, that Ginko isn't much of a liar like Joker is, or else the stage manager thinks they might have some problems. Still, even if he's not much of a liar, Joker wonders if he'd have to same kind of reaction to being called out he does. Not something he wants to risk.

Still.... What to say in that case? Maybe just treat it like normal, and he goes to find a perch to sit on. "Well, if yer just doin' yer job, got time ta break for a bit?"
pipers_son: (Story update. I'm locked out of my)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-25 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Once he's found his perch, seated as the world's gaudiest emotionally incompetent bird, Joker rolls the words around in his head and then his mouth before saying them. "Ya could probably hear that I was a bit... glib durin' that whole business a bit back..."

Party at Joker's trailer, let's listen and hope we hear Foster dying.

"But I was worried about ya. So just.... Are ya really okay?"
pipers_son: (leyline) (If I had to summarize my weekend)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-27 07:48 pm (UTC)(link)
He will be, huh? Well.... Joker guesses that's true, and nods slightly. Everyone will be all right, eventually, given enough time. Maybe this will be more of a 'sooner' than 'later' kind of deal. It'd be nice to think, anyway.

"...Anythin' ya need? That I could help with?"
pipers_son: (Don't get me wrong)

[personal profile] pipers_son 2017-05-29 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
The question makes Joker blink, drawing back a little in surprise, but even as a part of his mind asks why, he.... Glancing away, he rubs the back of his neck sheepishly. Nah, he knows why. Psi had been one thing, but that was.... Ugh. That was a mess on both their parts. At least, Joker still can't settle from the way the troll had approached it. But Ginko?

"Nah, I ain't upset." His face twists a little, like he's tasting something bitter. "Was just embarrassed for a bit, I suppose." Getting a hold of himself, Joker glances back to Ginko, grinning lopsidedly. "Spent a good couple of years buildin' up a nice reputation, then I go and get stuck in a tree! Besides, I figured ya would want some space after I fell on ya."

A pause.

"...That happened, right, I ain't particularly sure."