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Ginko ([personal profile] dontpokethat) wrote in [community profile] lostcarnival2017-05-08 11:55 pm

but all this time i've been chasing down a lie

Who: Ginko and a whole bunch of people (Sans, Joker, Snake, Zecora, Tanyuu…)
What: In the aftermath of Foster’s shitty mushi plot, Ginko isn’t doing great.
When: From Day 90 onward
Where: Medical tent, trailer 13, and menagerie
Warnings: Possible talk of Foster’s shitty reasoning, also Ginko is a pile of depression and self-hatred in a trenchcoat.

Zecora - Medical Tent - Day 90 afternoon

Ginko was unconscious when Tanyuu first brought him in, bruised and scraped from the fight with Foster on top of his already being exhausted. After a certain point, though, he’s just… asleep, and remains that way through the night and well into the next day. The past few days - between the mushi leeching off his blood supply and the lack of sleep from trying to handle the infestations around the carnival and stressing himself out over them - have taken their toll.

Normally, he’d be pushing himself up the moment he woke up, always moving before his brain is even fully awake. But, today, he just lies there for a few seconds, staring up at the ceiling, before lifting a hand to press his palm over his face.


Tanyuu - Trailer 13

Once it’s been confirmed that he’s good to go (and he’s promised not to strain himself too much), Ginko and Tanyuu head back to their trailer. Of course, agreeing not to tire himself out more doesn’t mean Ginko isn’t going to want Tanyuu to catch him up on what happened while was out - what happened to Foster, what was being done about the repellent.

The whole time they’re talking, he keeps fidgeting, whether with his sleeves or his hair or just in the form of his tail twisting and lashing around his ankles. “So… things are being worked out, right? Just… that’s all I need to know.”

Snake - morning of Day 92 - Menagerie

By all rights, this should be the best off Ginko has been in the past several days. In a lot of ways, it is; with the mushi situation finally under control, things are more or less looking up - and, since the mushi that had been leeching off his blood are finally being removed, little by little, he should be feeling a lot better.

Should be. He is feeling better of course, but he’s still more tired than he’d normally expect, and getting himself to go back to work when the time comes proves something of a challenge. But it’s not like he’s never had this problem before, and he does get to the menagerie, albeit a little later than usual.

His ears flick forward when he sees Snake already there, and he gives a small wave as he heads over to watch him feed his snakes. “‘Morning. How are they doing?”

Joker - Menagerie

For all intents and purposes, Ginko seems to be settling back into his work as if everything is normal - though he may seem a little more singlemindedly focused on it when he’s working, and a little less focused on anything when he isn’t. Of course, he’s still having trouble bringing himself to seek out conversation outside of what’s necessary, but… that’s probably fine. Even now, part of him wonders if it might be for the best.

Even when cleaning out the enclosures, he doesn’t pause for long between stalls. Clear out the muck, wash what needs to be washed, change out bedding and food as necessary - it’s a simple, easy pattern to keep up. Like walking, putting one foot in front of the other; he doesn’t need to think for it.

Sometimes, not thinking can be a nice change of pace.

Sans - Barn

Breaks… might pose a problem. Theoretically he could just keep working through them, but the opportunity to pause for a while is more tempting than usual… even if as soon as he’s not working he starts wishing he were. He’s used to spending his breaks chatting, wandering around the carnival to visit with coworkers, but… no way. Not right now.

Which leaves one obvious solution. Going back to his trailer would take too long and probably get some questions from Tanyuu if she catches him. So, instead, he just… flops down on a pile of hay in the corner of the barn. He’s slept in worse places.
ophidiarex: (Look away children)

[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-05-13 11:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"'We're used to it,' says Emily." It's a little bit hard to stay awake, especially towards noon, and getting harder, but he can push through yet. It's not something he enjoys, but it's doable.

He stares at the legged snake as it starts coiling around the rat, tiny limbs scrabbling for purchase on the dead creature's fur. That way he can pretend Ginko's not here, that he's talking to himself. "... difficult."
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[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-05-18 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
There's really no easy way to handle this. Snake shakes his head. Ginko seems tired all the time, he doesn't want to wake him up earlier. Besides that...

"'Easier to stay up than wake up early,' says Emily." It really is, even if dawn is the worst. It makes him so tired...
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[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-05-21 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"'We tried giving the hand crate mealworms. It really liked them. But Slenderman's almost out of entertainments and we didn't know his tastes.' says Donne." Snake looks almost sheepish. He's not that good with animals other than snakes, really, and in his state not even all snakes. Fido doesn't like him at all like this, for instance.
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[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-05-21 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
"'That would be nice. I don't know much about the creatures other than the snakes,' says Donne." Snake slips the garter snake into a tank even as he's speaking for him, and drops in a live earthworm.

Then he looks in Fido's direction and sighs. The "hound" hasn't loked away from Snake once, but it's feeding day for snakes, and that includes the divine. So he slips on leather gloves, grabs a pair of tongs, and tries to get as little of his vampiric scent on the dead rat he drops into the enclosure as is possible.
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[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-06-04 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Though Ginko's compliment makes Snake swell with pride, the question deflates it a little. He nods, biting his lip slightly; one of his fangs pricks it and Fido snarls. "'He doesn't like me, because I have a demon inside, hidden in my blood and soul,' says Fido." Of course the hound of heaven would wax purple prosaic.
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[personal profile] ophidiarex 2017-06-06 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
A nod is all Snake gives in reply to Ginko's question, but the statement makes him freeze.

It is his fault. It is. Snake should have left when Joker told him to. And even now, he could go back to himself, except... He doesn't want to leave his brother alone, even if their relationship is a mess. So this, this state, is completely his fault.

He can't convey this easily to Ginko, though. He can't usually speak for himself. It just doesn't work. He can't do it, so he simply hangs his head a little as he cleans the tongs.