[closed] i saw a friend of mine the other day

[dontpokethat]

Who: Ginko and the Psiioniic
When: Day 138
Where: Psi’s trailer
What: “so are we gonna keep dating or what”
Warnings: emotional incompetence

If Ginko is honest with himself, which he is on rare occasions, there is a part of him that is absolutely terrified to have this conversation - to even think about having this conversation.

The problem is, it’s not like it can be avoided. They work together, they see each other all the time, they were friends already - and now this.

Dammit.

Fears aside, Ginko is true to his word, and not long after he and Psi arrange to meet, there’s a knock on the door of his trailer.

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[dorkypantsuit]

If we're going to keep doing this. The words catch him off guard, and he ends up looking to Ginko eyes wide. It seemed Ginko was really willing to do this. The human might even feel the same way the Psionic did. He still had feelings for him, Ginko had said, and the sentence darts through him, forcing him to attention. In retrospect the Psionic could never see the real Ginko confessing the way he had in Portland. It had meant so much to him at the time, but hearing Ginko say he loved him now seemed impossible. This was different. It was real. Ginko was being honest with him, and though it wasn't really a love confession it was something. That's really all the Psionic had asked for.

"It's fine if you don't know... I wasn't the same me then as I am now either."

He smiles weakly, eyes still wet with tears. "There aren't any rules on how to do this except the ones we make ourselves."

[dontpokethat]

Ginko lets out a weak laugh and ducks his head a little, pushing his fingers through his hair. "You sure? Seems like there are always rules I'm supposed to know about."

At least he's calm enough now that he can joke about it.

[dorkypantsuit]

He lets out a snort of laughter, hiding his eyes with his. He's still embarrassed about how he reacted a moment ago, getting teary eyed and emotional. It's okay though, if it's in front of Ginko. He looks to his friend (boyfriend?) again, still smiling and knowing he won't be able to stop for a while. He's happy, and Ginko's somewhat timid expression is just one more thing about the human that he likes. He wants to kiss him, honestly, but well moving is tough and he doesn't want to scare Ginko off. Ginko seemed like the kind of person who would take things slow. Really slow. (And that was kind of cute too.)

"Speaking of rules... Should I just call you my boyfriend?"

Moirail or matesprit just felt a bit much right now. Not to mention that they were meaningless terms to someone like Ginko.

[dontpokethat]

"Uh--" Admittedly, he hadn't really thought through that part of all this. But... well, he doesn't see why not, if they're going to be... doing this. Dating, he guesses.

"Yeah. That... that'll work. Should I do the same? For you, I mean."

[dorkypantsuit]

He rolls his eyes, still smiling though. "Of course."

Though actually, since they were already talking about what to call each other he might as well bring it up. He doesn't really want to, it's just kind of embarrassing, but well...

"Oh... Also, Mituna really is my name... I know that wasn't us, but I just thought you should know... But don't call me that in front of the others, okay?"

[dontpokethat]

He'd kind of been wondering about that, actually - though it was somewhat eclipsed by all the other things he had to worry about. He nods, slowly; he doesn't quite get why it's such a secret here, where Psi isn't a demon, but... he'll keep it in mind.

"Alright. I won't." He hesitates, then adds, "Thank you. For telling me."

[dorkypantsuit]

He just blushes before looking away. Getting thanked for something like that really is embarrassing.

"Don't mention it."

[dontpokethat]

Ginko blinks - then laughs, as quietly as he always does, just a soft rush of air. "Almost can't believe I got you to blush for once."

Sure, it may not be the first time it's happened, but. It's not exactly a frequent occurrence, all the same.

[dorkypantsuit]

He winces before trying to hide his face in the pillows, which really he cant do because moving is still painful, so the effort is abandoned pretty early.

"Ginko..." He's whining. It's been a while since he was on the other side of this kind of thing. He's suddenly remembering why it kind of sucks.

[dontpokethat]

Man, that is... actually really cute. Ginko laughs again, leaning over and ducking his head in a weak effort to hide his smile. "Sorry, sorry. What am I supposed to do, not say anything?"

[dorkypantsuit]

"...No." he's still looking mildly embarrassed, but he's happy too. Ginko is laughing, and even if he's laughing at the Psionic and not with the Psionic, it's still nice to see Ginko looking happy. That feeling of wanting to please Ginko is back. It's a feeling he now realizes he hasn't had in a lot of his previous relationships. He doesn't know if that's good or bad or neither, but he likes it. Every smile felt earned, like some kind of reward, and it only made him realize how much he liked Ginko all over again. He wants to hold his hand or do something with the energy he's suddenly feeling, but he really can't. It's honestly a bit ridiculous.

"Maybe I should have waited until I could move before calling you over here."

[dontpokethat]

"Mm. Maybe. But... I dunno, waiting might have given me time to overthink things."

Of course, there was no guarantee going into this that he was going to agree to continue their relationship. But he did, and that only serves to make him feel that things going even slightly differently could have ended up with a different result. And... for the moment, he'd rather assume this was the right choice.

He sure hopes it was, anyway.

In the meantime, he hesitates, just for a moment. Then he reaches over to set his hand on top of Psi's. He... doesn't actually hold his hand or anything, just puts it there, but it's something. "I'm... I'm glad you asked me to come talk."