lostcarnival | dumb sad boys

Who: Lauren and Susan
What: ~~dumb brothers being sad - continued from here~~ OKAY NOW IT'S ACTUALLY A CATCH-ALL LAUREN+SUSAN POST FOR PRE-ALOLA JUNK
When: ~~Day 68 at night~~ a variety, starting with night of day 68
Where: their trailer

Although he eventually came out of the bathroom that first night, Susan still didn't talk to Lauren. Instead he avoided his brother as best he could, falling asleep curled up with Fluff (and Stanley, if she let him) on the bed.

The next day he went out, even though Lauren had told him not to; he didn't know a lot about vampires, and even though he felt bad doing it (especially when he was still worried about Lauren), he was pretty sure they couldn't go out in the sun, so it was an easy way to not have to talk to him. He didn't want another argument, not any more - not that he knew what else to do, not when he was feeling pretty bad now, but that didn't matter. He just didn't want Lauren to yell at him and tell him he's wrong.

By that night, though, he still wasn't feeling any better - and even though he still didn't want to really talk to his brother, he still missed him and wanted to be with him.

Once it was late, and he was sure Lauren would be asleep, Susan quietly left the sofa where he'd been originally planning on sleeping, instead slipping into the room with his brother. From there he quietly made his way to the bed, climbing under the covers while being as careful as he could to not wake him.

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Lauren looks surprised, and confused by that response.

"How is it your fault?"

"We're only here because of me... Because of my magic!" It isn't often he thinks badly of his magic, but sometimes he just can't help it. If he hadn't accidentally damaged the Carnival, they would be home right now.

"You can't help it." he starts, not sure how Susan can blame himself for doing something he never consciously did.

Lauren may say that, but Susan is still sure he could do something about it - and if he couldn't, then that meant it was him that was the problem and not something he was doing, which was maybe even worse.

"Susan..." Lauren starts. He shifts, moving from his side of the table to sit on the bench next to his brother instead. He wraps an arm around his brother's shoulders.

"Susan it is not your fault I'm here, I wanted to be here so I could be with you."

Susan leans into him after a moment, although he takes even longer to respond.

"But only because I had to stay."

"I chose to stay because I love you." he starts, hoping Susan can understand. "So isn't it technically my fault for keeping you around in the first place?"

That gets a little smile from him.

"You couldn't get rid of me if you tried."

"I would never want to."

He laughs a little at that, too, still just leaning on Lauren. He falls silent for a bit, before another thought comes to mind.

"I just wanna go home."

"We will go home. We just have to finish here first."

"I don't wanna finish here first... I don't like it here. People get hurt."

He hesitates, but eventually responds.

"Susan, people get hurt back home too."

"But not like this!"

"You don't know that."

"Well, I wouldn't like it there, either, if I saw it happen."

Lauren takes a breath and lets it go.

"Susan, is it really the people getting hurt that's upset you?"

He nods.

"Yeah, it is... Why?" He sounds a little confused, even.

He looks away, before he shrugs.

"I don't know. Some pretty bad stuff happened back there."

And he still hadn't seen Susan like this. Maybe he just hadn't noticed.

He shrugs a little, not really sure what Lauren's trying to get at or anything.

"I don't know... It's different, here." It's hard to put it in words, especially when a lot of it is guilt that he's having a hard time wrapping his head around.

He nods looking away, he never really expected to have this kind of a conversation with Susan. Suddenly it hits him that Susan is growing up. If only he'd been smarter, he'd have been with Susan during the fight. Maybe he could have stopped his brother from feeling this way.

"Susan, sometimes bad things happen, and we just have to deal with the aftermath the best we can."

It's a long moment before he shakes his head.

"I don't want them to happen. I can stop them so they don't have to happen."

"You can't stop everything, you're just one person."

He knows it's unrealistic, but he doesn't even care. He shakes his head again.

"I can do it, I just have to start with small things first."

"I'm glad you want to help... But it's important to know your limitations."

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