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dumb sad boys
Who: Lauren and Susan
What:dumb brothers being sad - continued from here OKAY NOW IT'S ACTUALLY A CATCH-ALL LAUREN+SUSAN POST FOR PRE-ALOLA JUNK
When:Day 68 at night a variety, starting with night of day 68
Where: their trailer
Although he eventually came out of the bathroom that first night, Susan still didn't talk to Lauren. Instead he avoided his brother as best he could, falling asleep curled up with Fluff (and Stanley, if she let him) on the bed.
The next day he went out, even though Lauren had told him not to; he didn't know a lot about vampires, and even though he felt bad doing it (especially when he was still worried about Lauren), he was pretty sure they couldn't go out in the sun, so it was an easy way to not have to talk to him. He didn't want another argument, not any more - not that he knew what else to do, not when he was feeling pretty bad now, but that didn't matter. He just didn't want Lauren to yell at him and tell him he's wrong.
By that night, though, he still wasn't feeling any better - and even though he still didn't want to really talk to his brother, he still missed him and wanted to be with him.
Once it was late, and he was sure Lauren would be asleep, Susan quietly left the sofa where he'd been originally planning on sleeping, instead slipping into the room with his brother. From there he quietly made his way to the bed, climbing under the covers while being as careful as he could to not wake him.
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Where: their trailer
Although he eventually came out of the bathroom that first night, Susan still didn't talk to Lauren. Instead he avoided his brother as best he could, falling asleep curled up with Fluff (and Stanley, if she let him) on the bed.
The next day he went out, even though Lauren had told him not to; he didn't know a lot about vampires, and even though he felt bad doing it (especially when he was still worried about Lauren), he was pretty sure they couldn't go out in the sun, so it was an easy way to not have to talk to him. He didn't want another argument, not any more - not that he knew what else to do, not when he was feeling pretty bad now, but that didn't matter. He just didn't want Lauren to yell at him and tell him he's wrong.
By that night, though, he still wasn't feeling any better - and even though he still didn't want to really talk to his brother, he still missed him and wanted to be with him.
Once it was late, and he was sure Lauren would be asleep, Susan quietly left the sofa where he'd been originally planning on sleeping, instead slipping into the room with his brother. From there he quietly made his way to the bed, climbing under the covers while being as careful as he could to not wake him.
nighttime on day 75
He still didn't know how to solve this, or really know what the real problem was in the first place, all he knows is that Lauren keeps getting mad about it whenever he was the one trying to fix it. Maybe that meant that he should be the one to fix it instead? He wasn't sure, and at this point it's hard to feel like it could work, but he feels like it's his last hope.
He takes a bit to come out of the bathroom, and when he does he glances towards the front door to Lauren, steeling himself a moment before going back to sit at the table again. He doesn't say anything, yet, waiting to see if Lauren will yell or argue or anything first before he does.
Re: nighttime on day 75
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"Are you still mad at me?"
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"... Probably not."
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"Then... Can we try and talk, without yelling?"
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"I don't know what I said to make you mad... But I'm sorry."
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"You don't... Understand."
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"No, I don't... I don't understand why you keep getting so mad, or anything."
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"I even tried asking for help, on the radios, but it didn't really help... I just don't know what to do, if every time we try and talk it turns into yelling. I don't like it."
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"It's kinda hard to figure anything out if I just talk to myself."
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"Sorry..."
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"I don't know... What to say." His voice is shaky, it's clear he's crying, though it isn't like he was hiding it before.
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Susan stay quiet, not sure what to even say himself, but afraid if he says that then Lauren won't even try. He's afraid somehow he'll mess it up, and he knows he's good at talking, but right now he's not sure what he's even good at, everything is messed up.
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"What if you get hurt again? What if the Ringmaster does something worse? What if you attack someone stronger than you? What if you attack someone who can't even defend themselves?!" He says all of it in a rush, like he can't get them out fast enough.
"I'm no good on my own. I can't do anything!" He's not quite a shout, but it isn't his normal speaking voice either. "There's no point... Without you."
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He finally shakes his head again, taking a second before starting to try and say something.
"Everything will be okay, in the end. So you don't have to be scared." Normally he'd believe it, too, but right now the words are hollow. Hopefully it's still enough to help his brother, though.
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"You thinking like that is the scariest part of all."
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"I just don't understand, why you're scared of things you can't change, that probably won't happen."
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"I'm no good at that. I don't know what'll happen, ever, things change all the time."
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