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lostcarnival2017-04-07 05:15 pm
pipers_son) wrote in lostcarnival2017-04-07 05:15 pm
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but oh my heart is flawed // closed
Who: Joker and a whole bunch of people (Tamaki, Psionic, Childermass, Ginko, Doll, Hinawa)
What: After a good couple of years faking it, Joker finally breaks. He just wishes that multiple people didn't see it.
When: Early on in the Alola stop
Where: A couple places, including in a tree
Warnings: Alcohol. Joker's messed up past including child murder. A slight mental break.
[Snake is leaving.]
[Joker see it coming a mile away. All the bits of packing in their tiny shared space, and... Who couldn't see such obvious signs? But even with that kind of warning.... He doesn't do anything about it. Tries to ignore it, get back to work and do what he can, because the alternative is facing not only that hurt but so much else.]
[But there's no ignoring it when he steps into the trailer and all traces of Snake are gone.]
[Keep smiling and move forward. For years, that's been the only way he's been able to survive. Keep moving, keep making for over the hill, and until then, so that no one worries or sees too much... Keep smiling.]
[The words repeat through his head as he moves through the darkened carnival, a mantra to keep him going.]
[Just.... keep smiling.]
What: After a good couple of years faking it, Joker finally breaks. He just wishes that multiple people didn't see it.
When: Early on in the Alola stop
Where: A couple places, including in a tree
Warnings: Alcohol. Joker's messed up past including child murder. A slight mental break.
[Snake is leaving.]
[Joker see it coming a mile away. All the bits of packing in their tiny shared space, and... Who couldn't see such obvious signs? But even with that kind of warning.... He doesn't do anything about it. Tries to ignore it, get back to work and do what he can, because the alternative is facing not only that hurt but so much else.]
[But there's no ignoring it when he steps into the trailer and all traces of Snake are gone.]
[Keep smiling and move forward. For years, that's been the only way he's been able to survive. Keep moving, keep making for over the hill, and until then, so that no one worries or sees too much... Keep smiling.]
[The words repeat through his head as he moves through the darkened carnival, a mantra to keep him going.]
[Just.... keep smiling.]
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It's fine. I guess I just can't get the hang of this 'look inside yerself' business!
[It's not even entirely a lie.]
At least the kitchen is stocked, huh?
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When I went to the Ringmaster, when she cured me, I kept in mind what you said to me before. I really think it helped.
Is everything... all right?
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Yeah? Good ta hear.
[At least he's able to do something right. He sips at his coffee, glancing up at her question.]
Ah... Just a rough night. Y'know how it is sometimes.
[Which doesn't cover nearly enough of it, but still.]