lostcarnival | ⇨ THE EPILOGUE

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⇨ THE EPILOGUE

Who: Everyone!
When: Day 61
Where: The Carnival
What: After all the rescues team return, it will be matter of tending to the wounded and getting the hell out of dodge. The Ringmaster can handle the fleeing part, but someone will need to look after those in the medical tent. Or, maybe, you just want to show up and ask what the hell happened.
Warnings: Some messed up consequences of faerie fuckery.

IN REPAIR↴

As the minutes tick past, all four rescue groups will eventually return. Everyone in the carnival is encouraged to help out, ensuring that the rescues and victims both are taken care of after the fact. You can tag in here as rescuers taking care of business around the carnival, victims recovering, or other workers checking in to see what's going on. This log is for general aftermath threads, made by anyone.

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He shakes his head again, more forcefully than before, finally looking up at Lauren, tears starting to fall.

"N-no, you're the best brother! You always help me, and, you're always there for me, even if I m-mess up...!"

It's not the reaction he was expecting. For Susan to so ardently defend him, it's touching and at the same time it hurts. Susan thought so highly of him, and yet in the past year he can think of nothing that he had done to deserve it. He had made Susan worry about him, he had fought with Susan, he had yelled at Susan, he had nearly died and left his brother alone in a place where no one knew or respected him. Susan deserved so much more than that, but for one reason or another it seemed he wanted Lauren.

He looks down at Susan, watching the tears fall down his brother's cheek. Then he wraps his arms around Susan, holding his brother tight. He always tried to do what was best for Susan. He cared more about his brother than he did anything else in his life. But he did make mistakes, mistakes he felt obligated to acknowledge.

"Thank you. I want to do better. But thank you."

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Later there will be time for him to tell Lauren how stupid he was, to get angry with his brother for messing up. Right now though he clings as Lauren hugs him, sniffling as he tries to keep his tears under control.

"You do good enough now..."

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It's not as good as Susan deserves though. Of course what Susan really deserved where things Lauren could never give him; a mother and a father, a normal life. There was no way he could ever manage to make up the difference. That's why it was so important to him to always do the best he could by Susan.

"I love you."

"I love you too." It's muffled by Lauren's shirt, but he still says it anyway, still hugging him tightly back as he cries quietly against him.

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He did this. He scared Susan. It's his fault Susan is crying against him right now.

"I'm sorry."

"Stop it..." He doesn't want to hear apologies, not now. Right now he just wants to finish crying, to get rid of his fear and grief. Then they can talk about how stupid he was.

He shuts up, letting Susan cry against him as he holds his brother close.

He's happy for it, honestly just happy to not have to talk or acknowledge his feelings and just sit here, safe in Lauren's arms.

Eventually though he's cried all he can, and he pulls back, wiping at his eyes. It's only after a bit of thought that he speaks up again.

"I love you. But, you'd better not do that again."

Lauren nods. He already knows he that. He never should have been so reckless.

"I won't."

He nods, and after a moment he laughs a little.

"I thought I was the one who did stupid things without thinking."

And Lauren doesn't even know what to say to that. It as stupid and reckless. He should never have done it. He was lucky to even be alive. He knew all that, and he wasn't yet at the point where he could laugh about it. It almost hurts that Susan would laugh, but Lauren knows is brother is just tying deal with the situation in his own way.

Still he wonders how many other people will laugh at him and call him stupid. He looked even more freakish now than he had ever before, and he felt strange in a way he couldn't describe. There was a strange foreign quality to his own body now that made everything feel not quite right.

He looks to Lauren after his brother stays quiet, looking him over before leaning back in against him. He isn't sure exactly what Lauren is thinking, but obviously his comment didn't help.

"...Sorry. I was just kidding."

He shakes his head. He knew it was just a joke. Susan was right anyway. It was stupid. If Susan had done the same Lauren would have been sick with grief and frustration.

"It's okay." he finally says. He looks to the window. He wants to go outside. He misses the earth. What was wrong with him?

He stays leaning against him, and when Lauren doesn't add anything else he continues.

"Just... You don't want me to do anything rash, so. I don't want you to either. Please?"

He looks to Susan, surprised by the question, and then swept with guilt once more for making such a horrible decision.

"I won't." he says, voice quiet. "Never."

He meant it earlier when he had apologized.

"I won't even fight. Not anyone."

He shakes his head and looks up to him.

"No, fighting is okay! You're good at it. Just... Be careful. I... I don't want to lose you."

'Again,' is the unspoken ending to that sentence, but he just leaves it there.

But what if he made another wrong decision? What if he changed again? What if he really left Susan behind?

"No... I can't."

He frowns and looks away. Maybe later he can talk about it with him again. Maybe right now it's just too soon.

"If someone attacks you first, then, you need to fight back. But... It's okay if you don't other times."

He knows Susan is right, but for some reason the idea still makes him uncomfortable.

"... Something's wrong."

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wild_magic - 2018-06-16 07:39 (UTC) - Expand

He looks to Susan, surprised by the question, and then swept with guilt once more for making such a horrible decision. He meant it earlier when he had apologized.

"I won't." he says, voice quiet, for some reason he's finding it harder than even he usually does to speak. Even forcing himself to say that much doesn't feel like it's enough though. He doesn't think words can ease Susan's concern. Still, there wasn't much else he could do now to reassure his brother. This was the only way.

"I didn't like... Being trapped."

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"...Yeah. I don't think anyone would." And why would they? Being trapped is terrible. Watching your brother get trapped sucks too.

He nods, just thinking about it brings him back there, into the soil. He can still feel the pressure of the earth compounding him, changing him against his will. His hands clench into fists, the one still on Susan's shoulder squeezing tight without Lauren realizing.

He pushes Lauren's hand away when he starts to squeeze, frowning.

"Lauren... Quit it."

He startles, releasing Susan and then looking to his brother in surprise. It takes him a moment to realize what he must have been doing, and he takes his hand away. He stares at his hand afterwards, moving his new root like fingers.

"Sorry."